When you decide that you’re going to start trying to change your life, I feel the only way to truly move on is if you address the things that could possibly be holding you back. So that’s exactly what I’m going to do. I’m going to write a letter to the people who have hurt me.
All I wanted was a true friend. All I wanted was a caregiver. All I wanted was to feel like you meant what you said. I’ve opened myself up time and time again to only be reminded of the disappointing feeling that hurts just as badly every time. How can you make promises that you don’t plan on keeping? How can you make things seem so great and then disappear without a word? How is it so easy for you to disappoint me without even considering my feelings? It lead me to start questioning myself. “Did I do something wrong?” “Am I expecting too much?” I go back and forth between thinking maybe it is my fault, and you know what.. their loss! It never feels good to not feel like a priority in someone’s life. So what I don’t understand is, how is it so easy for you to treat me that way? Your actions affect others lives. I second guess everyone’s intentions now. I never expect someone to stay in my life. I strongly believe that people come in our lives to teach us different lessons. Like love, patience, forgiveness, and self worth! After all the hurt from so many people I can say that I’ve just been able to grow as a person. So thank you! You’ve made room for the right people to eventually come into my life and I will be the best version of myself for them (:
It has taken me a long time to get to where I am today and it hasn’t been easy. I don’t have time for people that are going to let me down anymore. I’ve got a life to live so either you’re in or you’re out (: